Welcome to Mathetes Coaching Blog

Welcome to my blog that shares my spiritual healing journey through early childhood trauma and sexual abuse.

Mathetes is the Greek word for “Discipleship.” According to the dictionary, discipleship is “the condition or situation of being a disciple, a follower, or a student of some philosophy, especially a follower of Christ.” I am a disciple of Christ. I belong to Him because I put my faith and trust in the death, burial, and resurrection of Christ for my salvation. Accepting Jesus as our personal Savior is just the beginning of our journey. The Lord uses the rest of our lives to develop us into the image of Christ. He uses all our experiences to develop us. He uses everything; He wastes nothing. The Lord often allows His children to experience painful trials, not as a punishment, but to bring Him glory and grow us. This should not surprise us. Jesus tells us in John 16:33, “These things I have spoken unto you, that in me you might have peace. In the world you shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world”. I want to use this blog to share how the Lord has worked in my life through the tribulations I experienced so I can fulfill the mission of 2 Corinthians 1:3-4, “Blessed be God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.”

I have been through a rather painful experience in my lifetime and I know I am not the only one that has experienced what I went through. As a survivor of childhood trauma and sexual abuse, I suffered a lot of pain and negative consequences that impacted my view of God, which is totally understandable. However, God loves me (and you) too much to allow anything to get in the way of our relationship with Him. Even though I tried to forget the past and put it behind me, God, in His infinite wisdom ordained that my zip file of repressed memories open up on me at age 51. The memories and emotions of my past came pouring out all at once and overwhelmed my nervous system and set me on a healing journey that has totally transformed my life and walk with Him.

I want to use this blog to share my healing journey with you so you will know you are not alone. My heart is burdened for people who have gone through what I went through and are hurting, but are too ashamed to reach out for help and support. I am particularly burdened for Christians in the local church who are fearful of judgment and being seen as less than or unspiritual because of the thoughts that are going through their minds related to their trauma. I was one of them. Just to be clear, my church did nothing to shame me or make me feel less than, but I have experienced that in other churches I have gone to and I know it happens. For a long time I had no voice; I didn’t have the courage to stand up and be seen and to share my experience with others. I am not writing this for attention or pity because I have no interest in either of those. I am writing this now because the Lord has done a tremendous work in my life and I want you to see that it is possible for you. I am writing this now because the Lord has helped me find my voice and has given me the courage to stand up and be seen to give you the courage to do likewise.

Going through trauma changes us; it impacts how we think, act, feel, believe, and most of all, how we see God. The Lord sees our hurting hearts. He knows us intimately. He knows the thoughts of our souls that we share with nobody else. He is with you. He cares about you and wants to see you healed. This is my journey, and I invite you to take a seat at the table in the inner sanctum of my soul and observe with amazement God’s wonderful works.